It's December 10th. It feels like spring here.
I have two shows in February. and some time to prepare for them.

I'm finding a sharp change in direction would be nice.
Has everything been done before? The present conversation is continued.
I prefer images to words. They say more. They are riskier.

I think i may start this up again. what is it? what matters? what is the value of continuing to make art? so many people are focused on issues of their own -flies caught in a web. if we struggle hard enough. make enough noise. maybe we'll be saved at last. after all this time. the real questions remain unanswered. some things have changed for me personally. but, i don't think much. I'm still struggling with the fundamental questions of existence- the questions i've had in my mind since the beginning. who am i? what am i doing? why? I want to resolve some pieces of this puzzle here.

meI resisted covering the la fashion shows, but then I gave in. I ended up having a blast meeting everyone. The models were especially fun and strange creatures. I met a few girls who could be muses. some girls have it down- they have every facial expression at their beck and call. they know how to work it for the camera and they do without a moments hesitation. I like this kind of girl. she is easy to work with. then there are the shy quite models who don't know what to do. they are vulnerable. you have to approach them on that level. I learned an appreciation for this type of model. after 4 days of shows, it feels like I've been to some sort of summer camp. now i leave for new york, the pressure is on to do some of my best work ever.......

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if you become concious of the darkness surounding you.that vision will increase your power.seeing all sides of everything seems impossible.yet if some part of this becomes visible... embrace this chaos.bring your darkness to your waking life and put this energy back into art.so you may know.

It's important to keep things to your self sometimes. A plant growing from a seed must gain a certain amount of strength before it can survive the elements. No one can see what it's future holds when it's leaves first pop out. It could easily be a dandylion or crabgrass as anything else. perhaps it will be a shrub. or a tree.

I am me. I'll just relax today and accept it. nothing is going on. nothing turns out like you want.